Gurdas Ram Alam- by Sukhdev Sidhu

gurdfs rfm aflm:
vIhvIN brsI `qy Xfd kridaF

 

suKdyv iswDU

nf mYN jfxf aflm kOx. nf iehdy mYhny pqf. nf pqf, beI ieh iksy bMdy df nF hY. jF ieh kI krdf ey; jF ikwQoN df ey. iehdy nfl myrI jfx pCfx swuqy-iswD hoeI sI.
sbwb ieh bixaf ik inwky huMuidaF myry hwQ iek ikqfb af geI. mYnUM ieh ajy vI nhIN pqf ik ieh ikqfb ikwQoN afeI sI. ikhny idwqI sI. iehdy ilKfrI df vI mYnUM nhIN sI pqf. hF kdy kdy afÉrI jF afÉrI qoN pihlI sqr ’c Èbd ‘aflm’ afANudf sI. ikqfb df rMg GsmYÜf sI- imwtI rMgf. ikqfb dy pMj sq agly qy ipCly vrky hY nf sI. ieho myrI aflm nfl pihlI isafx sI. ieho myrf isafsI kivqf nfl ipaf pihlf vfh sI.
suKYl suvwlIaF kivqfvF myry cyqy ’c iek iek krky cVHdIaF geIaF; mUMh-ËbfnI Xfd ho geIaF. dhfky lMG gey nyy, pr keI kivqfvF ajy vI mYnMU awD-pcwDIaF Xfd hn. ienHF krky myrI ipMz dy isafxy bMidaF ’c puwC pRqIq bxI. Eh mYnUM bIbf muMzf igxdy. mYQoN kivqfvF suxdy. ajy pihlI msF inbVdI, ieh mYnUM aglI suxn dI PrmfieÈ krdy. mYN suxfAuNdf:

nI aËfdIey zwb KVwbIey nI,
ikANu nhIN idl mËlUmF nUM lfAux idMdI.
kMn bMd kr lY jy qYnUM burf lgdf,
nf qUM rox dyvyN nf qUM sOx idMdI.
lwKF lfl lY ky mUMh ivKfeI sfQoN,
nyVy afpxy ajy nhIN afAux idMdI.
afp ÉudmuKqfrI dI cwkI hoeIN eyN
sfnUM CwpV dy ivc vI nhIN nHfAux idMdI.
qYnUM toh ilaf ey qUM vwizaF GrF dI eyN
qyry ibrlf, mmdot inËfm ny puwq.
asIN iksy vI mulk ivc nhIN suixaf,
ipE aËfd qy jIhdy Êulfm ny puwq.
cfhy sfbq kr ik mYN ihMdosqfn df nhIN
lYNdf Pyr mYN iksy kolL nF koeI nhIN.
iek bfp dy asIN hF pwuq sfry
vwKo vwKrf sfzf igrF kooeI nhIN.
dyKx vflf muswvr qy krU guwsf,
ies qsvIr df mUMh qy bFh koeI nhIN.
ihMdusqfn ivc iek afËfd ihMdI,
rUVI sutx nUM jIhdy kolL QF koeI nhIN.
 

eydF dI iswDI spft kivqf nUM iksy ivafiKaf dI loV nhIN huMdI. sfÌ sfÌ qF gwlF sI.

lokF dy duwK drd dIaF; afm lokF leI afKIaF gwlF. afm lokF dI smJ ’c af jfx vflIaF. kivqf df ’kwlf ’kwlf bol jgmg jgmg krdf AuWTdf, cfnx ibKyrdf Auz puz jFdf. Èbd Tfh Tfh krdy, ptfky pfAuNdy jFdy qy itkfxy jf ky mfr krdy. pRoÌYsr mohx isMG dI kIqI lokF qy jokF dI vMz, aflm dI kivqf ivc hor iqwKI ho ky inKrdI. sroqy qF mYnUM sfh vI nhIN sI lYx idMdy. ienHF df ngfÜ suwk jFdf sI. eyhdf brfbrI dfavf dyKo:

hoeI ey vMz mnuwKF dI ijs vyly,
kIqf ihMd df jF qy iglf nhIN mYN.
sfzy ipMz dI jF pMcYq afKy,
ik vwzy vIr df Cotf Brf nhIN mNY.
gwlF jy ieh sfrIaF swcIaF ny
qF mn mfr ky Pfhf nhIN vwZ huMdf.
BfvNy ipMz ivcoN afvy iek mrlLf,
ihwsf afpxf kdy nhIN Cwz huMdf.

afËfdI nUM muÉfiqb kivqf imsflI ivaMg nfÜ Eq poq sI. iehdy ’c koeI vÜ Ìryb nhIN. guMJÜ dI guMjfieÈ hI koeI nhIN. QuVoN df mfiraf bMdf Blf iehnUM ikwdF nf smJUgf. nf smJx vfÜI koeI gwl eI hY nhIN iehdy ’c. kivqf vjoN iehdf sihj, inBfa, dfavf ÊOr krn vfÜf hY:

hwQIN cVHI hoeIN eyN ijnHF ivhlVF dy,
Eh qF nflL clfkI dy awgy hoey ny.
qYnUM ilafAux AuWqy ijhVf Érc hoieaf,
dMm sfzI kmfeI dy vI lwgy hoey ny.

‘jy mYN mr igaf’ kivqf EnI nhIN sI cVHdI; hux socdF hF ik iehdf kfrn Èfied mOq dy zr krky hovy. afp iehnUM mOq df koeI KOÌ hI nhIN sI. ieh kivqf iek ihsfb nfÜ gurdfs rfm aflm dI ilKI vsIaq hY. iek iksm df hukm hY, ik myry mrny qy kI kI kIqf jfvy qy kI kI nf kIqf jfvy. iehnUM qswlI hoxI hY ik mYN qF apxy ihwsy df kMm kr cwilaF hF. bfkI dI sfrI mUMh rKfeI hY. pr eys kivqf ivc gwlF bVIaF pqy dIaF ny. awgy jf ky iehI nukqy qrkÈIl lihr vjoN AuWBry.
pr iehdI kivqf ajLfdI bVI vsdI sI. bVI sOÉ nfÜ Ëubfny cVHn vfÜI kivqf sI. iehdy ivc afeI afjLfdI dI aflm ny puxCfx kIqI sI. eyhny inrK prK ilaf sI; beI ieh qF gwl eI horUM ho geI. iek ihsfb nfÜ DoKf ho igaf sI. ijwdF dI ajLfdI df ieh ikafs krI bYTy sI, EdF dI qF afeI eI nf. eyys ajLfdI ivc qF kfx sI. aflm kftvIN mjLfhIaf qnjL nfÜ vfr krdf hY:

ikEN beI inhfilaf afjLfdI nhIN vyKI,
nf beI Brfvf nf KfDI nf dyKI.
mYN jwgU qoN suixaf aMbflLy KVI sI,
bVI BIV Ausdy duaflLy KVI sI.
afeI nUM qF BfvyN qIaf sfl bIqf,
asIN qF ajy qwk drsLx nhIN kIqf.
idwlI ’c afAuNdI hY srdI dI ruWqy,
qy hfVF ’c rihMdI phfVF dy AWqy.
ÊrIbF nfl lgdI lVI hoeI af Ébry
amIrF dy hwQIN cVHI hoeI af Ébry.
aÉbfrF `c piVHaf jrvfxI ijhI ey
koeI sohxI qF nhIN aYNvy kfxI ijhI ey
mMny jy Eh kihxf asIN vI mMgfeIey
CMnF qy ZfiraF `c BuMjy svfeIey
pr eynf pqf nhIN kI KFdI huMdI ey
ikhVI cIË qoN idl curFdI huMdI ey
iÈmly qF Es awgy aFzy huMdy ny
beI qF sfzI qF KurlI ‘c tFzy huMdy ny

jdoN rqf ku surq hoeI, qF mYnUM sMuDk peI ik aflm qF mMjkI dy AuWGy nwgr buMzflLy df hY. ieh myrI mfsI df ipMz vI sI. eyQoN df kfmryz hriksLn isMG surjIq vI mÈhUr sI. eyQy vwzf kfrÉfnf vI hY. jdoN mYN eyQy jfxf qF aflm df puwCxf. mfsI dy iksy vI Grdy nUM aflm df pqf nhIN sI. Auhnf kihxf: ik ieh koeI cor vzfÜy df hoxf. cor vzfÜf kpUrQlLy koÜ hY. akflI lIzr kuldIp isMG eyQoN df eI sI.
kflj gey, qF sfnUM pr lwg gey. iek pfsy mF bfp dIaF awKF qoN prHy, hr pfsy KuwlH qy dUjy pfsy vwzI iËMmyvfrI df aihsfs. nfÜo nfÜ afdrÈvfd, awlV Aumr, qwq BVwQ ’c kuC kr mrn dI kfhÜ. AuproN bMgfloN, AuWT nkslbfVI lihr aFDrf qy pMjfb ’c af vVI sI. pMjfb ’c mogf aYjItyÈn BiKaf hoieaf sI. AuWTdI juafnI leI eydUM vwD KLqrnfk hor kI ho skxf sI. sfrf smfn – bfrUd dy Zyr vrgf sI. iksy vyly vI BFbV blL skdy sI.
mYƒ sfihq dI mws vI sI. EdoN ienklfbI sfihq dy hI bol bfly sn. bfkI sB kUV-kbfV sI. iehI myrI qy myry bylIaF dI smJ sI. Pyr suMDkF peIaF ik nrUdf qF ipafr dI kivqf dIaF slfhuqF idMdf hY. asIN iewko vylLy ienklfb dy mwdfh vI ho gey ipafr dy vI. rumFsvfd ’c guMunHI hoeI ienklfb dI cfhnf. asIN sfihq dy rsIey vI ho gey qy KyzF df ÈOk vI DuKdf irhf.
hOÜI-hOÜI mYN aflm dIaF hor rcnfvF pVHIaF. sfihq ’c rucI vDI. kflj dy mYgËIn qoN ÈurU hoieaf ilKx-Cpx df sLOk vD ky aKLbfrF qy ink inky rsfilaF ’c Cpx qwk awpV igaf. EdoN ku hI ajIq aÉbfr ’c gLjLl dIaF aslfhF ÈurU ho geIaF. nfÜo-nfÜ Ausqfd ÊËlgoaF ny isMg-PsfeI vI krI jfxI. blky bhuqI sMg-PsfeI hoxI.
suBfny mfstr lwgy amrjIq sMDU ny ‘arÈdIp’ rsflf ÈurU kr ilaf. asIN iehnUM kwcIaF ipwlIaF gLjLlF Byjdy; slfhF lYNdy. ieh afp dIpk jYqoeI df cylf sI, EhqoN ieslfh lYNdf sI. eyhqoN hI mYnUM pqf lwgf ik jlMDr dI lyKk sBf ny keIaF ilKfrIaF dy snmfn krny hn; sxy gurdfs rfm aflm dy. mYnUM afiKaf ik mYN vI Es idn phuMcF. iJjkdf, mYN vI phuMc igaf. pRogrfm vfhvf TIk sI. pUrI gihmf-gihmI sI. klfm dI vfrI afeI, qF aflm KVHf hoieaf. iehdy srIr ’c ÌurqI sI. bËurgI Br juafnI ’c sI, pr hMiBaf nhIN sI. mfeIk kolL jf ky eyhny aflLf duaflLf Pyr dyiKaf. nf koeI BUimkf bMnHI, nf ivafiKaf kIqI. nf afpxy bfry kuC ikhf nf hI kivqf bfry. TrMHmy nflL msLhUr qrIn gIq suxfieaf. nflL-nflL Kwby hwQ nUM kdI AuCflLy, kdI lihrfvy qy kdy QpQpfvy. kivqf boldf aflm Kwby hwQ nUM hyTF AuWqy Kwby swjy krdf kihMdf:

lMbVf dI kMD twp ky
muMzf kMizaF coN byr ilafieaf.
qlLI AuWqy jfn rwK ky Ehny
byrI dy ipMzy nUM hwQ pfieaf.
ijs vylLy rok nf skI
nvyN pYrF nUM dIvfr purfxI.
nws ky aMdr luk geI
kuMzf mfr ky vwzI cuDrfxI.
muwCF AuWqy hwQ Pyr ky
nfÜy KMiGaf qy nfÜy muskfieaf.
lMbVf dI kMD twp ky
muMzf kMizaF coN byr ilafieaf.
qlLI AuWqy jfn rwK ky Ehny
byrI dy ipMzy nUM hwQ pfieaf.

aflm df jfdU cl igaf. drimafny kwd df ilwsf ijhf, iekihry srIr df, sfd-murfdf afm ijhf bËurg. muÈkI rMg dy ichry qy iqWKf nwk. slIky nfÜ suafrIaF ink inkIaf muwCF qy dfVI sÌf cwt. isr ’qy hlkf ijhf nIl idwqI hoeI icWtI pwg. moZy ’qy prnf. ÈfmrMgy aflm dy isr qy icwtI pwg vDyry icwtI lwgy. aflm dI afvfË ivc txk sI. mUMh-ËubfnI mtkfa ky bolI kivqf ny DMn DMn krf ’qI. Kwby hwQ nUM ieh kivqf ’c qfl leI vrqdf. GVI muVI mukwrr mukwrr, dubfrf dubfrf dIaF PLrmYsLF hoeIaF. iek iek bMd iqMn-cfr cfr vfr suixaf–suxfieaf igaf. aflm ny PMksLn lwut ilaf. vwzy vwzy kvIaF dy qwpV ruÜ gey. eydF dI isÉrlI sLfierI qoN mgroN Pyr koeI nhIN bol skdf huMdf. mylf KLqm kr dyxf hI TIk huMdf. pr eyQy aflm qoN bfad hor boly. Pyr kI hoxf sI. lLok AuWT ky CyqI CyqI inklxy ÈurU ho gey. dfrU iswky vflLy Ehly ho ky glfs BVfEx lg pey. ijnHF dIaF TfhrF sn, Eh afrfm nflL kwCF ’c hwQ dy ky tihlx lwgy. hmfqVF nUM iÌkr sI ik hux kI krIey. rfq dy ds igafrF vwj gey sI. bws df koeI tYm nhIN sI irhf; huMdf vI qF aYs vylLy rfq nUM kyhnUM aOKf krnf sI. mYN aflm dy nyVy ho igaf. iehnUM pRsMskF ny Gyiraf hoieaf sI. pr rfq kwtx nUM iksy nf ikhf. pRsMsk hOÜI-hOÜI AuryH-prHy ho gey. pRbMDk kdy dy iKsk cuwky sn. guVyH hoey aflm df qËurbf vwzf sI. aflm ny ikhVf kwcIaF goÜIaF KyzIaF hoeIaF sI. eyhnUM pqf eI hoxf, beI mYnUM iksy ny rfq nhIN ktfAuxI; afpy hI koeI bMnH-suwB krnf pYxf. iehnUM iksy qy afs vI nhIN hoxI. msqI ’c aflm tysLx vwl nUM ho igaf. nf KuÈ nf nfrfË. mYN vI nfÜy eI ho quiraf.
pRogrfm rfq nUM sI. pRbMDkF dy cODr-ByV ’c bysuafdIaF hoeIaF. iksy ny sfzI bfq nf puwCI. aflm dI vI nf. ijhnUM ajy kuJ GMty pihlF snmfx dy ky hty sI; bVy sohly gfey sn. asIN rylvy stysLn vwl nUM qury jfeIey qF sfzy nfl nvyN Èihr vwl df gLjLlgo vI ho quiraf. QoVHf awgy jf ky pYr GVIsdf GVIsdf Eh vI iKsk igaf. asIN suMn msfn jlMDr rylvy stysLn jf puwjy. ivrÜf ivrÜf kulI AUNGdf idsy. asIN iek iek bYNc mwl ilaf – lfgy lfgy. awD-lyty ijhy ho gey.
gwlF kridaF aflm AuDV igaf. iehny mYnUM apxI iËMdgI dI ibiQaf hI suxf idwqI. kihMdf: mYN qF jI anpVH bMdf aF. nf ilK skdF, nf pVH skdF. lwlf Bwbf krn leI awKr AuTflx jogf vI bfad ’c hI hoieaF. hor qF hor, mYnUM qF nF vI irVH KuVH ky ilKxf afANudf. pr kivqf mYnUM AuWqoN AuqrdI af. iehdy leI mYnUM koeI qrwdd nhIN krnf pYNdf. ieh ibnF qklIPL dy myry kolL af jFdI af. mYN Xfd kr lYnF. Pyr mYN EdF hI bol idMnF. aYnf eI sfrf kMm af. mYN iqMG iqMG ky nhIN ilKdf. ijwdF dI iehdI kivqf sI, EdF dIaF hI gwlF. koeI vÜ nhIN, Ìryb nhIN; koeI Aucyc nhIN. aflm dIaF gwlF hlImI nfÜ lQ pQ sI. sfd murfdIaF sihj suBfa idafnqdfrI nfÜ kIqIaF sfDfrx pr zfZIaF asrdfr bfqF. gwlF kfhdIaF iehdI ijLMdgLI df incoV qwq sI.
aflm ny afpy dwisaf ik BfeI mYN qF iewtF df pQyrf sI. awT afny idhfVI ’qy. qukbMdI kr lYNdf sI. pfiksqfn ’c rih gey koty vwl koeI kvI drbfr sI. mYN vI suxn clf igaf. mYnUM EnHF dI kivqf cMgI nf lwgI qy mYN kih ’qf, Cwzo Xfr ieh vI koeI kivqf af. agly kihMdy: jy qYnUM jfadI aONdI af, qF qUM suxf dy Py. mYN ikhf: mYN suxf idMnf. Gusr musr ’c myrf vI nF bol idwqf. mYN kivqf suxf idwqI. lokF muV-muV suxn dIaF ÌrmYsLf kIqIaF. kihMdy: qUM ikwQy luikaf irhf. mYnUM ienfm vI imiÜaf qy nfm vI hoieaf. Eh kihMdy qUM awj pQyry qoN muxsLI hoieaf. pr kMm qyrf, kivqf ilKxI qy kvI drbfrF qy jfxf. aMnF kI BflLy do awKF? aflm kihMdf: mYnUM smJ hI nf afvy beI ieh ho kI igaf. iksy ÊrIb mËdUr df eynf mfx.
Pyr kihMdf: iek vfr mYN bVf ksUqf Ps igaf. sfzy ÊrIb lokF nUM keIaF gwlF df pqf eI nhIN huMdf. Eh smJ bYTy, beI kvI koeI isafxf huMdf – Dfgf qvIq krn vflLf. mYnUM kihMdy afh sfzI kfkI iZwlI mwTI rihMdI af. iehdf ielfj kro jI. mYN EnHF nUM kvHF qusIN zfktr nUM idKfE, Eh kihx, koeI Dfgf qvIq krky dyh. mYN qF eys kuwqKfny dy suDf iKlfP sI. mYN bQyrf kvHF, beI kvI df mqlb ieh nhIN huMdf; Eh ikWQy mMnx jI. Eh qF BfeI myry pysL hI pY gey. aÉIr ’c mYN aYvyN PUkF PfkF ijhIaF mfr ky KihVf Cuzfieaf.
mYN gIq bfry pwuiCaf qF aflm kihMdf: isLv kumfr ny iek gIq iliKaf sI ijhVf idwlI vfÜI suirMdr kOr ny gfieaf sI. ryzIE qy vjdf rihMdf hY: mYnUM hIry hIry afKy hfey nI muMzf lMbVF df, nI muMzf lMbVF df. ieh gIq sux ky mYN ikhf: dur iPwty mUMh aflmF, ieh kI sflLI gwl hoeI beI. lMbVF dy muMizaF dy ikhVy Puwl lwgy hoey af jo sfizaF dy hY nhIN. E sfzy afvdy muMizaF nUM koVH hoieaf hoieaf; qusIN ienHF dy juwsy qF dyKo – dsF nhuMaF dI ikrq nfl kmfey hoey. mjfl af ikqy ilP jfx. Pyr kihMdf: sfÜI jgIrdfrI qoN sfzf KihVf nf Cuwtf – sfihq ivc vI nf Cuwtf. myrf gIq ËYldfrF qy lMbVdfrF nUM cYilMj hY. DgiVaF dy iKlfPL af – inaF dy hwk ’c. vwizaF nUM mfrI swt hY – myrf ieh gIq. mYN cfhMunF ieh swB kuJ bdl jfvy. CyqI.
Ërf ku sfh lY ky Pyr gwl qorI. kihMdf, mYN ikhf: lY beI isLv kumfrf, qyrf gIq BfvyN suirMdr kOr gfvy qy BfvyN gfvy prgfsL kOr. BfvyN jlMDr df ryzIE stysLn inwq vjfvy qy BfvyN ieh vwjy idwlIEN. myrf afh qoV gIq lokF dy idlF ’c vwjdf eI rhU. ieh kihMdf aflm sihj Bfa ’c sI, hAumY ’c nhIN. aflm dI TrMHmy nfl khI gwl ’c dwm sI. vDfa ky kIqI gwl nf sI. iehdf afKxf TIk hI sfbq hoieaf sI. iehdf jlvf qF mYN rqf ku pihlF eI awKIN vyK ky hitaf sF.
ieh aflm dI sLfhkfr rcnf hY. isafsI rMg ’c qF rwqI hoeI hY eI, iehdy ’c lYa hY; rvfnI hY; srod hY, josL hY, suhj hY;L cfhnf hY. lok bolI dI cVHq hY. sQfpqI dy iKLlfPL kIqf isry df vfr hY. sÌfjMg. purfxy nUM bdl ky nvF ilafAux dI qFG hY. iehdy ’c aflm dy TwTy vfÜy mÈkUlI suBfa qoN AuÜt gihr gMBIr ivcfr hY. gIq dI Ëubfn qy cVHn dI pUrI smrwQf hY. aflm nUM keI ‘drimafnf kvI’ kihMdy hn. ZuwzF vfÜy skflr aflm qoN AurF eI rih jFdy af. pr aflm vwzy imsLn df kvI sI. kivqf dy nflL Ehny afpxI jmfq dy lokF nUM vI hlUxf dyxf sI. Ehny eys gwl dI prvfh vI nf kIqI ik EhnUM koeI vwzf kvI kihMdf hY jF Cotf. ieh ÌYslf Ehny lokF qy Cwizaf hoieaf sI. afm lok hmysLF iehnUM cfhuMdy rhy. isLv dy mukfbly vI, aMimRqf qy eyQoN qk ik pRo mohn isMG dy mukfbly vI. jdoN ienHF dI pUrI cVfHeI sI.
aflm kihMdf: isLv qy mYN vlYq ’c iekwTy ho gey. iek do PMksLnF ’qy mylL vI hoieaf. isLv kumfr iglf kiraf kry; Xfr mYnMU qF aYs buVHy ny bVf qMg kIqf hoieaf; Bfrq ’c mYN qF eydF idaF nUM icwq ’c eI nhIN rwKdf. drasl, aflm ny ieh gwl mYnUM Gtfa ky dwsI sI. iÈv dI kivqf dI EnI bwly bwly nf hoeI. vlYq dy sMgI sfQI dsdy hn ik isLv dI kivqf aflm dI kivqf mUhry itkdI nf sI. aflm df pyNzU muhfvrf qy sfÌgoeI isLv qoN vwD BfAuNdI sI. afm lokF dI bolI sI – sfd murfdI; gwlF-bfqF vrgI kivqf sI. EhI muhfvrf. iehdI kivqf styjF qy vI vs jFdI sI, kvI drbfrF qy vI GrIN lfeIaF mihÌlF ’c vI qy pwbF ’c vI.
aflm dI kivqf ’c koeI gwl qF jLrUr hoxI eI aF jo eyhdI pihlI ikqfb df muwKbMd ipMRsIpl qyjf isMG ny iliKaf qy dUjI df ipMsIpl sujfn isMG ny. qIjI df lhOrI rfm bflI ny iliKaf sI. aflm dI mMg vI sI, cVHq vI. ieh biVaF df pRyrxf sroq vI bixaf. kMm iehdf kvI drbfrF qy jfxf sI. TfrHF vI bVIaF sI iehdIaF. kvI drbfr qoN hPqf hPqf pihlF hI GroN qur pYxf; rfh ’c TihrF krdy jfxf qy krdy eI afAuxf. afjLfdI qoN pihlF ijhVf aMgryjLF dy iKlfPL boldf sI, Auhdf bolbflf sI. aflm aMgryjF dy iKlfÌ boldf sI. Pyr rihMdI Aumr iehdf qfx afm lokF dy hwk ’c boldf irhf.
styj df DnI aflm kvI drbfrF dI sLfn huMdf sI. iehdI kivqf dI izilvrI qy adfiegI kIl lYNdI sI. afm kvI drbfrF qy iehdI cVH mcdI. kfmryzF dIaF styjF qy iehdf vwKrf tOhr huMdf sI. sfry suxn suxfAux vfÜy Gr dy bMdy huMdy sI. ivcfrF dI sFJ vfÜy. KulHidlI nfl dfd imlxI – ienfm iÈnfm vI. ienklfbIaF dIaF styjF vI bMnHI rwKxIaF iehny.
qrsym puryvfl qy sMqoK iÈv nUM lY ky vulvrhYNptn phuMc gey. mohry aflm pUry jlO ’c styj qy myldf iPry. ieh ‘ielYksLn’ kivqf boldf sI. EDroN aflm ny kivqf dI sqr khI: ‘cwky hoey purfxIaF cODrF dy, cMzIgVoN mÈhUr Blvfn af gey’ qy EDroN isLv hfl ’c jf viVaf. bVbolf iÈv kihMdf: hF hF, mYN vI Esy cMzIgVoN hI afieaF. aflm qF Cfieaf hoieaf sI. isLv dI kI puwC hoxI sI EQy. sfihq akYzmIeyN isLv dy mfx ’c rwKIaF keI pfrtIaf dIaF vI PUkF eI inklL geIaf. lokF suixaf eI nf jF bolx hI nf idwqf. isLv ny kihxf Eey qusIN afh buVHy nUM hI isr ’qy cukI jfny EN, mYN nhIN dIhdf quhfnUM. aflm iÈv nUM cMgf kvI qF mMndf sI pr jmfqI sUJ qoN axiBwj. aflm dy iek dOry vyly aMimRqf pRIqm vI vlYq afeI hoeI sI. Pyr vI aflm df jfdU Gitaf nf.
ÉUbsUrqI df iehdf afpxf sMklp sI. eyhdf ibafn pfsL ny ‘isafV’ ivc aflm bfry lyK Cfp ky kIqf sI: ‘Auh jmfqI nÌrq ivc gVuc hoeI iek KVkdI sÉÈIaq hY. Auh afpxy lokF nUM phfVF vFg aV ky Kloqy dyKxf cfhuMdf hY. mYN qF eyhnF nUM kihMdF huMnF, qusIN srdfrF dy GVy hoey rsmF, rvfieqF qy sMskfrF df bfeIkft kro.’ awgy jf ky pfsL aflm dI krmBUmI df nkÈf iKcdf hY: “QF QF qy bMnHy hoey zMgrF qy nMg DVMgy KFdy bwicaF dy Jurmt sn. hfVH dI lwgI hoeI dupihry vI muhwly ivc afrfm nF dI koeI ÈYa nhIN sI. cOhIN pfsIN iek kuhrfm ijhf micaf hoieaf sI. aOrqF mËUrI ivc ilaFdIaF hoeIaF kxk dIaF BrIaF nUM kuwt kuwt ky dfxy kwZ rhIaF sn. CwjF df DImf KVkf. AuWz rhI ÉuÈk DUV ivc ËnfnIaF dy mUhF AqoN dI pwly bMnHy hoey. pÈUaF dy ml mUqr dI qyjL hvfVH. Èfied iek kvI dy rihx leI ieh dunIaF dI sB qoN Xog QF sI. ieh kivqf leI jLrÉyjL BumI sI.”pfsL eyhnUM aslI ienklfbI lok kvI kihMdf sI.
aflm mYnUM kihMdf Blf qUM dws, beI kflLy rMg nUM ikhVf kohV hoieaf hoieaf. rMg qF do eI hoxy af. jy sfzy rMg rqf ku kflLy af qF lohVf kI af igaf. bQyrI dunIaF kfÜy rMg dI af. aÌrIkf vfÜy sfry kfÜy af. iehdy ivc sfzf ksUr vI kI af. sfzf afpxf suhj hY. mYnUM qF hux sgoN mfx af kflLy rMg’qy. ‘gorf rMg itwibaF df ryqf hvf afeI AuWz jfAUgf’ lok bolI kihky iehny mYnUM svYmfx ’c lwQ pwQ hor gIq suxfieaf:

mfhI myrf kflLy rMg df
ivhVy vVdf qy cMn cVH jFdf
jwg dI BlfeI vfsqy
byhIaF rotIaF imrc nfÜ KfdF
kwlf Eh kmfAU Gr coN
cONh jIaF dI iKwcy hrnfVI,
lUx qyl cfh nf cuwky
EhdI cfr mMj dmVy idhfVI
juafkF nUM pVOHx bdly
Gfh Koq ky idhfVI jFdf
mfhI myrf kflLy rMg …
kxkF dy JfV vwD gey,
EhqoN vwD vD geI mihMgfeI
aOKf hoieaf iZwz qornf
dwsoN ikwQoN mYN Brf idaf rjfeI
AuWqy lY ky sONdf cfdrI
hyTF borIaF dy qwpV ivCFdf
mfhI myrf kflLy rMg………
jdoN mYN ivafhI afeI sI
do hjLfr df sI Zol pQyrf.
rfj sI PrMgIaF df
kdy muwkf nhIN sI Gr coN lvyrf
doNh mohry gfrf suwtky
GfxI puwt ky iewtF sI lFdf
mfhI myrf kflLy rMg……
mYnUM kihMdf myry huMidaF
nI qUM ikEN qklIÌ AuTfvNy
hws hws rojL dwsdf
gwlF bYT qfiraF dI CfvyN
af jfxf rfj afpxf
sfnUM ‘aflm’ aYlfn suxFdf
mfhI myrf kflLy rMg ……

eydF dI kivqf mYN kdy nhIN sI suxI. ieh ibMb ÈYlI hor ikqy nhIN sI imldI. ieh aflm hI kr skdf sI. gwlF kridaF nUM pqf eI nf lwgf ik rfq kdoN inkÜ geI. nHyrf iCwdxf ÈurU ho igaf sI. sUrj dI itwkI AuWT rhI sI. aflm ny apxf sfPf JfiVaf. mYN do kwp cfh mMgfeI. aflm ny Kwby hwQ dy poitaF ’c kwc df iglfs GuMmfANuidaF cfh dy sVHfky mfr ley. asIN ’kwTy bws awzy nUM ho qury. rfq vfÜy keI BOr Bfn dy mfry, mUMh twzI awzy ’qy AubfsIaF mfrdy iPrn. iksy ny aflm nUM sfhb slfm nf kIqI. mYN ikhdy pfxIhfr sI. aflm nUM iehdI koeI prvfh nhIN sI, Ehdf imsLn bVf vwzf sI.
nkodroN inkiÜaf sfzf pUr jlMDr af ky iKwlr igaf. kuJ bI aYWz krn imMtgumrI kflj af gey, kuJ duafby kflj qy kuJ zI ey vI kflj. mYN Éflsf kflj pMjfbI dI aYm ey krn lwgf. kdy kdfeIN nkodrIey swjx-bylI iml bihMdy sF. jF iPr bwsF ’c sfbH slfm ho jFdI. gLjLlgo Bjn afdI ny mYnUM sudysL kilafx nfl imlfieaf. kihMdf: ieh aflm dI DI ey. mYnUM cfa cVH igaf. ieh Bjn nfl hI bI aYWz krdI sI – imMtgumrI kflj. QoVH icrf myl sI – kuJ plF df. ienHF nUM vI kfhlL sI qy mYnUM vI. Pyr imlx dy Brosy asIN afpo afpxy rfh pey. mYN sudysL nflL bfp-aflm bfry gwlF krnIaF sI. Ehdy suBfa dIaF. kihxI krnI dIaF. hor vDyry jfnx dI BuWK sI. muV myÜ nf hoieaf.
ipafr mnuwKI iÌqrq hY. iËMdÊI df swc. muhwbqF sfiraF nUM ho jFdIaF ny. aflm iehdy bfry ieÈfry hI krdf hY. ÊrIb df ipafr buwkÜ df guV huMdf hY – Bor Bor ky Kfx nUM. aflm ikqy kihMdf hY: qUM mYnUM imlx afeIN, nkodr dy mkLbrIN qy ikqy hor DImI sur ’c hUMgy ijhf mfrdf hY.
aflm ny Xuwg purÈF nUM muÉfiqb kivqfvF vI ilKIaF sxy nfnk, rivdfs, lflo, mrdfnf, DMnf Bgq qy aMbyzkr nUM. eys bhfny aflm ny iehnF nfl goÈtI kIqI. ienHF dI gwl awgy vDfeI.
aflm afpxy ipMz dy do bMidaF dy vDyry nyVy sI; ienHF nflL isr joV quiraf vI. mfrksI lIzr hriksLn isMG surjIq qy pMzq bKsLI rfm. dovNy inrol isafsI jIv: dohF ny afpxy afpxy QF vwzy mfarky mfry. aflm ny vI Gwt qF nf sI kIqI. buMzflLy dy ienHF jixaF ny iehdf nF hor vizafieaf. kfmryz surjIq AuWcIaF pOVIaF cVH igaf. aflm df Ìoks vwzf irhf; ivcfrDfrf df. dwibaF kucilaF dI mukqI df. ieh bKÈdf iksy nUM nf sI. ‘BfrqI soDvfdI nUM’ nF dI kivqf ’c ieh apxI iDr idaF nUM vI lMmy hwQIN lYNdf hY; pr kfmryz hrikÈn isMG surjIq dI ‘mihmf’ ’c aflm ny iliKaf sI:

cwk ky itMz POVHI rfh coN pryH ho jfh
eyQoN lokF idaF lIzrF ny lMGxf ey

pfiksqfn bxy qoN bfad vI iehdI TfT EDr bxI rhI. icrfgLdIn dfmn dy mukfbly df sLfier qF ieh sIgf hI. bjLfqy-Éud vI dfmn iehnUM vwzf Èfier mMndf sI. Eh iehdy jlvy rOilLaF qoN pihlF dyK cuwkf sI. iehdI KYLr swuK df mwdfh sI. afey gey qoN Eh iehdf hfl hvfl puwCdf rihMdf sI. dfmn dI bhuqI mÈhUrI izktytrF nflL mwQf lfAux krky hoeI sI.
aflm dsdf sI, sfDU isMG hmdrd vI iehdf rOilLaf qo pihlF df hI cMgf jfxUM sI. iehqoN Kfr vI KFdf sI. Kfr dI vjHf qF jwg jLfihr eI sI. Eh hux srdI pujwdI, phuMc vflLI sfmI sI qy aflm hmfqV df hmfqV irhf. pr hmdrd dI kivqf nf pihlF iehdy mohry cldI sI nf hux. pfsL dI kivqf nUM ieh cMgI mMndf sI. kihMdf eynI CotI Aumry eydF dI kivqf? eys muMzy df ËrUr vwzf nF hoAU. guaFZI jgqfr df vI ieh mfx krdf sI.
kvI drbfrF dy dOr ’c ivDfqf isMG qIr, guridq isMG kuMdn, sÌrI, hsnpurI, brkq rfm Xumn, nUrpurI, muxsLf isMG duKI, nfjLr isMG qrs iewkTy huMdy. ieh kvI drbfrF dI tOhr bixaf irhf. nUrpurI dI axafeI mOq ny aflm nUM pRyÈfn kIqf. duwKI hoey aflm ny nUrpurI leI ivrlfp iliKaf. hfkmF nUM lfhnqF pfeIaF, ijnHf vyly isr bfq nf puwCI:

pMjfbI gIqF dy ÈihnÈfh nUrpurIaf,
awKF mIt ky kihr guËfr igEN
hmdm, ÈrÌ, ÈhId, KuÈnId ipwCy,
cfqirk vFg AuzfrIaF mfr igEN
sfzy igwDy isafipaF ivc bdly,
hfsy Koh ky ÊmIaF iKlfr igEN
……………
qyry huMidaF sfry pMjfb aMdr,
jxf Kxf hI BMgVy pf irhf sI,
ÈOkx myly dI jdoN iqafr hoeI,
kYNTy vfÜf prfhuxf vI af irhf sI.
…………
mYnUM iglf hY vkq dy hfkmF qy,
ijhnF duÈmxI Kfh mKfh kIqI
qyry mry qy mwdqF dyx afey,
qyry jIAuNdy dI nhIN pRvfh kIqI.

Bfrq ivcly ijMny kvI drbfrF ’qy aflm jFdf, iehdI kivqf dI JMzI rihMdI. iehnUM suxn qoN bfad suxn vflLy dUsiraF nUM nf suxdy. pRbMDkF leI ieh isrdrdI bxdI. jy dUsry kvIaF nUM nf bulfAuNdy qF Eh nfrfjL huMdy, jy bulf lYNdy qF sroqy JwjUhfrf pf bihMdy. dwsx vflLy dsdy hn ik isLmly kvI drbfr qy mohn isMG qy aMimRqf pRIqm nUM suxn qoN ienkfrI ho gey. Eh kihx: aflm koloN eI hor suxfE, bfkI idaF nUM rihx idE.
sMgI sfQI dsdy hn ik aflm sfPL idl, suGV, koml BfvI, imlxsfr, nykbKLq bMdf sI, pr sI TrMHmy vflLf. ibnF iksy iJjk, vÜ Pryb dy gwl kihx vfÜf. jo idl ’c EhI kivqf ’c. eydF dI eI iehdI kivqf sI – pfsL dy afKx vFg “ÈuwD mjLdUr” jmfq dI kivqf- sfÌ spft. lokF dI kivqf, lokF leI. iehnUM smJx leI bhuqf jLor nhIN sI lgdf. nf ieh afp iqMG iqMG ilKdf sI, nf pVHidaF suxidaF lokF dy aVHft inklLdy sI. aflm ny eyQy af ky iksy awgy hwQ nf awzy sI. lokF ny EN eI bVf mfx idwqf ieMglYNz ivc. ieh afpixaF ’c af igaf sI. jys kMm leI afieaf sI krky muV igaf.
isLv ny sfAUQfl dy zumInIam isnymf’c kivqf pVHI qF koeI qfVI nf vwjI iksy ny nkd ienfm nf idwqf. isLv bONdl igaf. bONdlxf eI sI.
1953-54 ’c AuWBrI idhfqI mjLdUr sBf df ieh mYNbr sI. hor ahuidaF qy vI irhf. isafsI qOr ’qy aflm qfa Aumr kfmryzF nfl sI jF aMbyzkr nflL. iehdI kivqf juJfrvfdI qF nf sI, pr Jwgy cukdI sI. iqwKy vfr krdI sI. hlUxdI sI. jdoN 1956 ’c bfbf aMbyzkr jlMDr bUtf mMzI afieaf, qF bfby aflm ny EhdI hfjLrI ’c EhdI isÌq ’c kivqf pVHI. bfby aflm df jfdU Pyr cwilaf – aMbyzkr bfby dy sfmHxy. mrfTI aMbyzkr nUM pMjfbI afAuNdI sI jF nhIN pr lokF dy Aumfh qoN ËrUr pqf lwigaf hoAU ik ‘koeI gwl ho rhI hY’. hux qFeI bfhr aMdr boDI iehI gIq afpxy PMkÈnF qy awj vI pUry mfx nflL gfAuNdy hn:

bVf sLor pYNdf gLrIbF dy ivhVy
ieh awj kOx afieaf svyry svyry
nvIN iehdI iQAUrI nvF eyhdf Kfsf
ieh ijMdgLI df cfhuMdf bdlL lYxf pfsf
luk luk roNdy isafsI lutry………

CMnf qy Zfiraf df dsdf Aujflf
aflm ’c hY hux kuC hox vflf
lwKF lok bihMdy juV ky cuPyry………

aflm Krf ienklfbI lok kvI sI. Eh smfj ’c rih, Kih ky iqwKf hoieaf. insLfny vl syD DfrI quiraf igaf. aKIrly idnIN afpxI DI sudysL kolL irhf. sudyÈ vI kivqf ilKdI sI. dovyN ipE DI kivqf bfry ivcfrF krdy. hor gwlF vI kr lYNdy sI. sudysL BfgF vflLI hY, ijhnUM eydF df bfp imilaf, ijhdy bfry koeI mfVf nhIN kih skdf. sfzy DMnBfg ik ieh sfzy vyiÜaf ’c hoieaf; sfnUM iehdy drÈn ho gey.

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